Sophie

Note April 7, 2016

 So I was thinking earlier today and I thought about getting frustrated with Sophie at the store last Sunday because she was fussing and whining about sitting in the basket. she said mim let her. I basically said, well I don't. she cried. pretty hard. and I was pretty cold to her. I threatened to leave. now I realize I was wrong. she was probably looking forward to it. she was definitely excited to do it. and I killed it with little feeling and mostly the wrong feelings. I ignored her feelings. I feel terrible. and she isn't home so I can't hug her or kiss her or cuddle with her or tell her how much I love her. I'm writing this down so that, hopefully, I will read it and remember to do better at thinking about that sweet little person who is so curious and adventurous, who has so little freedom or autonomy but the will and the energy to do a million things at once. I love you Sophie.

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